✿ acceptance :) ✿

what do you think? i made it mysef~

please give me your opinion XD

My opinion about acceptance :)

Conflict Solve~

sorry for my last posts~ at that time, im just too angry... this time, i wanna tell that i just make up with my friend..  i finally get to said the things that i wanna say to her... and im relieve... seriously... after that, she can accept the fact and she's actually wrong.. and she still wanna be my friend... i seriously though that shes gonna hate me after that.. but hey! she didnt! and i love her for that... i made a promise with her that i wont keep any of my frustration towards her to myself ever again.. so next time i will just said it straight on... so we're peace now.. you dont have to worry anymore.  for my friend who are always there during the conflict : syida, rara phea. atin, awin, dayah. thanks for listening to my stupid thoughts.. and all.. I LOVE U GUYS~<3

NEW BLOGGER IS COOL~

seriously! its cool..
first maybe bcoz i like orange...
and it looks much more arrange... neat.. i guess...
so its cool~
XD

QUESTION

JUST ONE QUESTION.

PLEASE ANSWER IT HONESTLY.

which kind of friend is a good friend?

a. a person who change us into a person towards her liking - in a good way lah

b. a person who accept us for who we are

PLEASE.

my artwork #2

REALITY?

what is reality?

a place where regions fight?

a place where people kills?

a place where friendship dies?

i don't know any more

why is reality have to be so cruel?

why reality have to be something so sad?

when it was suppose to be fill with love

we filled it with blood

stains

and tears.

why can't we just make the reality

a good thing?

why must we say that reality is hard?

when what happens in reality

is all depends on how we act???

please,

make me believe

that living in this reality is not that bad

if not,

please let me stay in my own world again

i feel much more safer that way

much more protected

much more secure.

END

what? me??...LOL

*sigh*...
somehow  i feel like this is the only best place where i can really actually express my feelings..

my anger
my disappointment
my sadness
my happiness
my hobby
what i likes
and what i dont likes...

because no one actually reads it anyway~ 


= w =''

LOL.. hhahahaha

well you see.. i dont really know how to express myself in front of others...
its just that i feel that people are easy to misunderstand me when the're with me..

okay.. it is undoubtedly that i am a very straight forward person..
well, i speaks my mind... but its just me...

to tell the truth, after i said anything, i never actually remember what i said...
you know.. like when i accidently  said things that make people hate me...
i dont remember them.. every day is a new day you see... hehehe

or maybe when i accidently raise my loud voice...
to tell the truth... about raising the voice..
every time i raise my voice, i feel like i want people to here me... bcoz, i was raise in an empty house when i was little... i was alone... my dad passed away when i was 7.. and since then, my mum was always busy with her work... it was lonely... so every time im in a crowd, i feel like if i raise my voice, people will notice me...
SO PLEASE DONT HATE ME BECAUSE MY VOICE IS LOUD...

i know that im hard headed, hot- blooded, short tempered, careless in every way and very clumsy too..
^
^
^
all negative things :'(


but im not really a hateful person right??? or i am one??? OMG!!!
i'll just stop here.. k bye..

Money???!!

*sigh*
aku benci betul lah!!! kenapa lah orang dulu2 cipta duit?? sistem barter je x cukup ke??

korang nak tahu x kenapa aku benci duit ni??? sebab...

AKU DAH FED UP TENGOK ORANG BERGADUH SEBAB DUIT!


aku rasa cam nak mencarut la.. serius!
aku tahu zaman sekarang ni duit tu penting kalau nak hidup..
tapi kenapa manusia ni senang2 je buta dengan duit???
aku x suka...

ok.. tipu kalau aku cakap aku x suka duit...
tapi aku benci kalau sebab duit,

adik beradik jadi renggang..
kawan jadi gaduh..

BODOH LAH!!! duit tu tak bawak mati pun la!!!
ok jujur aku cakap sebab aku rasa sekarang ni aku cam dingin ngan best friend aku sbb duit!

kalau aku ada banyak duit, aku x kan mintak duit dari sesiapa lah!!!!!!!

aku x kan susah2 nak penatkan otak aku fikir, siapa salah.. and siapa yang perlu bayar!!!
AKU AKAN TERUS BAYAR SENDIRI!! kau paham x?
sebab aku malas nak gaduh sebab DUIT!
tapi masalahnya sekarang ni, aku x de duit!!!! sebab aku x de duit, aku kena buat keputusan... siapa yang salah.. sebab siapa yang salah kena bayar denda tu.. PAHAM X???

dulu, masa laptop kau retak, kau surh aku bayar RM 350... aku bayar kot (walau pun x habis lagi - bayar ansur2)
padahal, benda tu salah kau...
siapa suruh kau letak lappy kau kat lantai masa kat loker library (dah la laluan kat loker tu sempit)??
memang x pernah dibuat orang!!! letak lappy kat lantai tu...
tapi sebab aku rasa bersalah, AND AKU MALAS NAK GADUH!! sbb aku dah terlanggar lappy kau MASA KAU LETAK KAT LANTAI.. aku bayar... tanpa sebarang kompromi...

lapas tu bila tiba turn kau...
kau letak kereta aku kat tempat yang memang confirm akan kena saman lapas kau dah guna kenapa????
kalau kau x guna kereta aku, and aku kena saman, x pe... mmg salah aku... esok tu abang aku boleh senang2 je datang and bagi duit untuk aku bayar saman tu...
tapi sekarang ni kau dah guna kereta tu... lepas tu kau park kat situ pulak... then kereta aku kena saman...
>>> sebab tu abang aku x nak hantar duit kat aku... sbb, die kata tu salah kau...

kau ingat tak masa aku kata yang tu salah kau.... then kau kata kat aku yang tu bukan salah kau sebab kalau kau x guna kereta tu, kereta aku tetap akan kena saman....

aku cerita la kat abang aku... pas tu kau tau x apa abang aku tanya aku???
dia tanya:

abang : kalau budak tu boleh cakap macam tu kat kau masa kau mintak duit, kanapa dulu masa lappy die rosak, kau x cakap cmtu kat dia??? kau cakap la yang tu bukan salah kau sebab dia yang letak lappy die kat lantai... orang lain x pernah buat camtu kot (letak lappy kat lantai - refer pada cerita kat atas tadi...)


aku: (speechless) orang malas nak gaduh la... lagi pun orang mmg rasa bersalah... bayar je la... die tahu kan.. orang malas nak gduh sebab duit... x berbaloi!


kenapa reaksi kitaorang (aku - ngan kawan aku tu) x sama...

aku rasa bersalah - bayar je.. malas nak pikir bapa byk pon.. yang penting tu duit aku.. aku x nak libatkan mak aku...

dia rasa bersalah - izzah.. nanti i bayar separuh... i boleh bayar separuh je.. sebab its not my fault.. (padahal RM 50 je pun...)

AKU X PAHAM BETUL...
please let me rest...*sigh*


p/s: bagi aku nilai persahabatan kita lagi mahal... up to you what to say coz i know you are still my good friend.

my artwork #1

LOLOL~ please don't laugh at me for this piece of work.. (>o<'')

i know its amateur... but just please here this~ ngeeee...

bird fly up in the sky

i look in despair as i am not them

to fly is something that is so far from my reach

soaring cannot be my desire

but i made s decision to leave.

the differences makes me believe

that this is not where i should be

as there is somewhere else out there

where i think i suppose to be

to be to a place where i belong

a place i call home..

there.. i hope you guys can comment 

and give me some of your opinion.. 

THANKS~ xD

What would you feel???

Okay. i admit that i post this entry because i'm not satisfied with a certain someone..

first of all, i wanna ask you this question..

have you ever heard that someone that you can barely know their name talk about you in your back??

well, that incident actually happen to me and i just know about it tonight!

actually, there's this girl.. 

she's in the same course as me.. 

just different classes.. 

shes in class X and i'm in class Z..

i actually heard that she talks about me from my high school BFF..

who actually is her friend's room mate..

so she tell me almost everything.. 

THE PROBLEM HERE IS...

1. i don't know her

2. i barely know her name

3. i just happen to know her face because my university's BFF talks about her and show me her face..

4. i NEVER talk to her.. EVER!

5. we have nothing to do with one another! 

6. we're even in a different classes!

SERIOUSLY! whats her problem???

she argue how i could get 3 pointer something when i don't even study..

plus my commitment with my debate club..
and she says that there's no way i could get 3 pointer..

WTF??? im not even listed in the dean list like her! why would she even care about my pointer? right? her pointer is MUCH MUCH better than mine..
so whats her problem with me??
how did she even know that didn't study whatsoever???

I DO STUDY OKAY!!!

she doesn't even know me!!

oh.. just go eat shit and die lah girl! 

people like you are crazy!


*YES! I AM FURIOUS RIGHT NOW!!!*

New Face~✿

like usual. every year, i will change my blog layout...
enjoy it.. and if you guys think that there's something or anything i need to improve, just comment.. kay?
bye~