Tuesday, May 22, 2012

LOVE...?

haha do i have love problems lately???
i dont think so...
so why is there a lot of love updates on my facebook??
haha... i dont know myself...

what i know is it sadden me to see a girl with hijab to date with some guy 
holding hands... whats the point of hiding your hair if you give the guy other things that is far more important about you to the guy???

these days, i have this habit of observing people... 
i like to go to secluded area and search for couples... 
i saw a lot of couples.. from the one who are free hair...
to the couple who you can say "using ALLAH as a reason for loving"
whats the point of wearing hijab if you kiss?
whats the point of wearing long shirt if you hugged?
whats the point of wearing arm socks if you touch hands???
for those who did more than this...
think again.. why did you love him/her...
IS IT REALLY BECAUSE OF ALLAH??
OR IS IT JUST BECAUSE OF LUST?

please think about it... AND PLEASE STOP USING ALLAH AS A COVER FOR YOUR LUST!!!!

sesungguhnya, seorang perempuan itu tidah harus lah merendah- rendahkan maruhnya kerana seorang lelaki  kerana maruah seorang perempuan itu tidak boleh di cari ganti...

Monday, April 23, 2012

SUCKER FOR WORDS?.............and a confession???!!!


hahaha...
somehow i just realise that i am a sukker for words...
people just keep on misunderstanding my intentions..
hahaha

whatever~ only those who know me
understands me... hehehehe.. right rara???
somehow no matter how many bestfriend i have,
i still have to search for you when i want to express my feelings..
happy, troubled, sad...
haha..

is it because i know that you know me best?

but i'm wondering whether you think the same about me rara~
i hope you do coz if you do not,
its quite embarrassing for me.. hahaha

like the unrequited love see?
hahhaha
its embarrassing!

OH GOD! this sounds like a confession!
i can't even help her to fix up her blog because of my work..
sorry honey~
nanti ek..
when i'm free~ hehehehe

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

my first day working experience~

today is my first day trying to earn money rather than asking money from my mother...

i work as a cashier..
of course.. on the first day, im not allowed to use the computer...
but i still learn a bit about it~ <3
but mainly today, i just learn how to separate stuff.. the fresh stuff, dry stuff, soaps, stationery...
ALL THE STUFFS 

i came at 9.30, like i was instructed
and i begin to fill in more form of admission when i realize that i still dont have my kwsp.. LOL
gotta have one fast! its important!
at that time, i was with this one boy named anis. he have to fill in the form together with me...
when i already dome with mine, we have too read this rules & regulations..
i finished reading it like FOREVER and wait for him like FOREVER!!!
FUCK HIM LA...
HE IS SO DAMN SLOW!
he saw me waiting for him since we wont get to listen to the briefing until he is finish!
yet he just take HIS DAMN TIME to read that thing...

after some time, the officer ask him.. are you done?
and he answer.. "ah? oh.. wait.. wait.."
and i happen to see that the officer say something without making a sound..
i read her lips : "LEMBABNYA" hah! even she says that! i said in my heart..
you imagine... i wait for him for almost 1 hour!!!! EVEN A GHOST COULD GET BORED!!
by the time he finish, its already 11.15am!

then we start with the briefing...
they tell us EVERYTHING!!
even the FREAKING HISTORY OF MYDIN~
the briefing finish at 12.45.  the human resources officer then introduce us to the inventory staff..
then by the time she want to introduce us to our head of department, its already 1.00pm which is the rest time..
and I FUCKING BLAME THAT DAMN SLOW BOY!!
if its not for him, we would have start much more earlier... WHATEVES~

after that, i meet quite a lot of people there...
they're all so friendly... i love them!
AND I PROMISE TO DO MY BEST WHILE I'M THERE~
wish me luck
even though i know that i have to create my own luck :)

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

✿ acceptance :) ✿

what do you think? i made it mysef~
please give me your opinion XD

My opinion about acceptance :)


Conflict Solve~

sorry for my last posts~ at that time, im just too angry... this time, i wanna tell that i just make up with my friend..  i finally get to said the things that i wanna say to her... and im relieve... seriously... after that, she can accept the fact and she's actually wrong.. and she still wanna be my friend... i seriously though that shes gonna hate me after that.. but hey! she didnt! and i love her for that... i made a promise with her that i wont keep any of my frustration towards her to myself ever again.. so next time i will just said it straight on... so we're peace now.. you dont have to worry anymore.  for my friend who are always there during the conflict : syida, rara phea. atin, awin, dayah. thanks for listening to my stupid thoughts.. and all.. I LOVE U GUYS~<3

NEW BLOGGER IS COOL~

seriously! its cool..
first maybe bcoz i like orange...
and it looks much more arrange... neat.. i guess...
so its cool~
XD

Sunday, March 25, 2012

QUESTION

JUST ONE QUESTION.
PLEASE ANSWER IT HONESTLY.

which kind of friend is a good friend?

a. a person who change us into a person towards her liking - in a good way lah
b. a person who accept us for who we are

PLEASE.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

my artwork #2

REALITY?

what is reality?
a place where regions fight?
a place where people kills?
a place where friendship dies?

i don't know any more
why is reality have to be so cruel?
why reality have to be something so sad?
when it was suppose to be fill with love
we filled it with blood
stains
and tears.

why can't we just make the reality
a good thing?
why must we say that reality is hard?
when what happens in reality
is all depends on how we act???

please,
make me believe
that living in this reality is not that bad
if not,
please let me stay in my own world again
i feel much more safer that way
much more protected
much more secure.

END

what? me??...LOL

*sigh*...
somehow  i feel like this is the only best place where i can really actually express my feelings..

my anger
my disappointment
my sadness
my happiness
my hobby
what i likes
and what i dont likes...

because no one actually reads it anyway~ 


= w =''

LOL.. hhahahaha

well you see.. i dont really know how to express myself in front of others...
its just that i feel that people are easy to misunderstand me when the're with me..

okay.. it is undoubtedly that i am a very straight forward person..
well, i speaks my mind... but its just me...

to tell the truth, after i said anything, i never actually remember what i said...
you know.. like when i accidently  said things that make people hate me...
i dont remember them.. every day is a new day you see... hehehe

or maybe when i accidently raise my loud voice...
to tell the truth... about raising the voice..
every time i raise my voice, i feel like i want people to here me... bcoz, i was raise in an empty house when i was little... i was alone... my dad passed away when i was 7.. and since then, my mum was always busy with her work... it was lonely... so every time im in a crowd, i feel like if i raise my voice, people will notice me...
SO PLEASE DONT HATE ME BECAUSE MY VOICE IS LOUD...

i know that im hard headed, hot- blooded, short tempered, careless in every way and very clumsy too..
^
^
^
all negative things :'(


but im not really a hateful person right??? or i am one??? OMG!!!
i'll just stop here.. k bye..

Friday, March 23, 2012

Money???!!

*sigh*
aku benci betul lah!!! kenapa lah orang dulu2 cipta duit?? sistem barter je x cukup ke??

korang nak tahu x kenapa aku benci duit ni??? sebab...

AKU DAH FED UP TENGOK ORANG BERGADUH SEBAB DUIT!


aku rasa cam nak mencarut la.. serius!
aku tahu zaman sekarang ni duit tu penting kalau nak hidup..
tapi kenapa manusia ni senang2 je buta dengan duit???
aku x suka...

ok.. tipu kalau aku cakap aku x suka duit...
tapi aku benci kalau sebab duit,

adik beradik jadi renggang..
kawan jadi gaduh..

BODOH LAH!!! duit tu tak bawak mati pun la!!!
ok jujur aku cakap sebab aku rasa sekarang ni aku cam dingin ngan best friend aku sbb duit!

kalau aku ada banyak duit, aku x kan mintak duit dari sesiapa lah!!!!!!!

aku x kan susah2 nak penatkan otak aku fikir, siapa salah.. and siapa yang perlu bayar!!!
AKU AKAN TERUS BAYAR SENDIRI!! kau paham x?
sebab aku malas nak gaduh sebab DUIT!
tapi masalahnya sekarang ni, aku x de duit!!!! sebab aku x de duit, aku kena buat keputusan... siapa yang salah.. sebab siapa yang salah kena bayar denda tu.. PAHAM X???

dulu, masa laptop kau retak, kau surh aku bayar RM 350... aku bayar kot (walau pun x habis lagi - bayar ansur2)
padahal, benda tu salah kau...
siapa suruh kau letak lappy kau kat lantai masa kat loker library (dah la laluan kat loker tu sempit)??
memang x pernah dibuat orang!!! letak lappy kat lantai tu...
tapi sebab aku rasa bersalah, AND AKU MALAS NAK GADUH!! sbb aku dah terlanggar lappy kau MASA KAU LETAK KAT LANTAI.. aku bayar... tanpa sebarang kompromi...

lapas tu bila tiba turn kau...
kau letak kereta aku kat tempat yang memang confirm akan kena saman lapas kau dah guna kenapa????
kalau kau x guna kereta aku, and aku kena saman, x pe... mmg salah aku... esok tu abang aku boleh senang2 je datang and bagi duit untuk aku bayar saman tu...
tapi sekarang ni kau dah guna kereta tu... lepas tu kau park kat situ pulak... then kereta aku kena saman...
>>> sebab tu abang aku x nak hantar duit kat aku... sbb, die kata tu salah kau...

kau ingat tak masa aku kata yang tu salah kau.... then kau kata kat aku yang tu bukan salah kau sebab kalau kau x guna kereta tu, kereta aku tetap akan kena saman....

aku cerita la kat abang aku... pas tu kau tau x apa abang aku tanya aku???
dia tanya:

abang : kalau budak tu boleh cakap macam tu kat kau masa kau mintak duit, kanapa dulu masa lappy die rosak, kau x cakap cmtu kat dia??? kau cakap la yang tu bukan salah kau sebab dia yang letak lappy die kat lantai... orang lain x pernah buat camtu kot (letak lappy kat lantai - refer pada cerita kat atas tadi...)


aku: (speechless) orang malas nak gaduh la... lagi pun orang mmg rasa bersalah... bayar je la... die tahu kan.. orang malas nak gduh sebab duit... x berbaloi!


kenapa reaksi kitaorang (aku - ngan kawan aku tu) x sama...

aku rasa bersalah - bayar je.. malas nak pikir bapa byk pon.. yang penting tu duit aku.. aku x nak libatkan mak aku...

dia rasa bersalah - izzah.. nanti i bayar separuh... i boleh bayar separuh je.. sebab its not my fault.. (padahal RM 50 je pun...)

AKU X PAHAM BETUL...
please let me rest...*sigh*


p/s: bagi aku nilai persahabatan kita lagi mahal... up to you what to say coz i know you are still my good friend.