DREAMS~

lately, i've been reading this manga titled BAKUMAN and it really makes me feel like i wanna be a comic editor.. haha

since i really like to read any comics i really feels like if i can be a comic editor, i can read a lot of good manga... especially if i'm a WEEKLY SHONEN JUMP editor.. i dont mind reading any genre if its comic.. but shonen is my favourite.. haha.. anyway.. ONE PIECE, NARUTO, BLEACH, BEELZEBUB, NURARIHYON NO MAGO, ORESAMA TEACHER are all shonen manga... and i really love them~

anyway, if you wanna synopsis about BAKUMAN, i am more than glad to tell you...

at first the story is just about a couple of boys who collaborate in order to write a manga.. one of them is the author (who writes the story), shuujin, and the other one is the artist (the one who draws), saikou.. the artist is in a love with the hottest girl in school, miho and that girl too is in love with him.. but they never really talk to each other... haha sweet if you ask me.. miho actually wanna become a voice actress..

after their graduation at junior high, shuujin take saikou to miho's house and at that time, she just arrive at her house and bout to enter until shuujin stops her.! then he said that saikou has some thing to say to her... at that time, of course saikou is nervous and he randomly ask her whether she really wanna be a voice actress despite the fact that she is a very shy person and she say yes~ they he said that he wanna be a mangaka.. when miho heard that, she promise that she will be a voice actor so that she can be in his anime..  then out of the blue, saikou say this "so when our dreams come true.. will you marry me?" wahahaha!!! i laugh at that!!! coz its so funny... they promise that they wont meet and just exchange the e-mail.. u see.. the story is fun.. but of course its not just that... they somehow manage to get their manga serialize.. he met a lot of other mangaka and become friends and rivals too...

but suddenly saiko get sick and need to have an operation and because of some tragedy that happen to saikou's uncle.. his manga was put into hiatus even when he is so against it...  then all of his friend decide to stop sending their manuscript so that the order to put saikou's manga to hiatus will be remove..

its fun.. and the're also a lot of ups and down in it especially when their manga was cancel because they cant get enough votes...

its fun...

and reading about how they describe about editor's work... some how i really feel that i could be happy while working if i can be editor... hehehe...

LOVE...?

haha do i have love problems lately???

i dont think so...

so why is there a lot of love updates on my facebook??

haha... i dont know myself...

what i know is it sadden me to see a girl with hijab to date with some guy 

holding hands... whats the point of hiding your hair if you give the guy other things that is far more important about you to the guy???

these days, i have this habit of observing people... 

i like to go to secluded area and search for couples... 

i saw a lot of couples.. from the one who are free hair...

to the couple who you can say "using ALLAH as a reason for loving"

whats the point of wearing hijab if you kiss?

whats the point of wearing long shirt if you hugged?

whats the point of wearing arm socks if you touch hands???

for those who did more than this...

think again.. why did you love him/her...

IS IT REALLY BECAUSE OF ALLAH??

OR IS IT JUST BECAUSE OF LUST?

please think about it... AND PLEASE STOP USING ALLAH AS A COVER FOR YOUR LUST!!!!

sesungguhnya, seorang perempuan itu tidah harus lah merendah- rendahkan maruhnya kerana seorang lelaki  kerana maruah seorang perempuan itu tidak boleh di cari ganti...

SUCKER FOR WORDS?.............and a confession???!!!

hahaha...
somehow i just realise that i am a sukker for words...
people just keep on misunderstanding my intentions..
hahaha

whatever~ only those who know me
understands me... hehehehe.. right rara???
somehow no matter how many bestfriend i have,
i still have to search for you when i want to express my feelings..
happy, troubled, sad...
haha..

is it because i know that you know me best?

but i'm wondering whether you think the same about me rara~
i hope you do coz if you do not,
its quite embarrassing for me.. hahaha

like the unrequited love see?
hahhaha
its embarrassing!

OH GOD! this sounds like a confession!
i can't even help her to fix up her blog because of my work..
sorry honey~
nanti ek..
when i'm free~ hehehehe

my first day working experience~

today is my first day trying to earn money rather than asking money from my mother...

i work as a cashier..
of course.. on the first day, im not allowed to use the computer...
but i still learn a bit about it~ <3
but mainly today, i just learn how to separate stuff.. the fresh stuff, dry stuff, soaps, stationery...
ALL THE STUFFS 

i came at 9.30, like i was instructed
and i begin to fill in more form of admission when i realize that i still dont have my kwsp.. LOL
gotta have one fast! its important!
at that time, i was with this one boy named anis. he have to fill in the form together with me...
when i already dome with mine, we have too read this rules & regulations..
i finished reading it like FOREVER and wait for him like FOREVER!!!
FUCK HIM LA...
HE IS SO DAMN SLOW!
he saw me waiting for him since we wont get to listen to the briefing until he is finish!
yet he just take HIS DAMN TIME to read that thing...

after some time, the officer ask him.. are you done?
and he answer.. "ah? oh.. wait.. wait.."
and i happen to see that the officer say something without making a sound..
i read her lips : "LEMBABNYA" hah! even she says that! i said in my heart..
you imagine... i wait for him for almost 1 hour!!!! EVEN A GHOST COULD GET BORED!!
by the time he finish, its already 11.15am!

then we start with the briefing...
they tell us EVERYTHING!!
even the FREAKING HISTORY OF MYDIN~
the briefing finish at 12.45.  the human resources officer then introduce us to the inventory staff..
then by the time she want to introduce us to our head of department, its already 1.00pm which is the rest time..
and I FUCKING BLAME THAT DAMN SLOW BOY!!
if its not for him, we would have start much more earlier... WHATEVES~

after that, i meet quite a lot of people there...
they're all so friendly... i love them!
AND I PROMISE TO DO MY BEST WHILE I'M THERE~
wish me luck
even though i know that i have to create my own luck :)

✿ acceptance :) ✿

what do you think? i made it mysef~

please give me your opinion XD

My opinion about acceptance :)

Conflict Solve~

sorry for my last posts~ at that time, im just too angry... this time, i wanna tell that i just make up with my friend..  i finally get to said the things that i wanna say to her... and im relieve... seriously... after that, she can accept the fact and she's actually wrong.. and she still wanna be my friend... i seriously though that shes gonna hate me after that.. but hey! she didnt! and i love her for that... i made a promise with her that i wont keep any of my frustration towards her to myself ever again.. so next time i will just said it straight on... so we're peace now.. you dont have to worry anymore.  for my friend who are always there during the conflict : syida, rara phea. atin, awin, dayah. thanks for listening to my stupid thoughts.. and all.. I LOVE U GUYS~<3

NEW BLOGGER IS COOL~

seriously! its cool..
first maybe bcoz i like orange...
and it looks much more arrange... neat.. i guess...
so its cool~
XD

QUESTION

JUST ONE QUESTION.

PLEASE ANSWER IT HONESTLY.

which kind of friend is a good friend?

a. a person who change us into a person towards her liking - in a good way lah

b. a person who accept us for who we are

PLEASE.

my artwork #2

REALITY?

what is reality?

a place where regions fight?

a place where people kills?

a place where friendship dies?

i don't know any more

why is reality have to be so cruel?

why reality have to be something so sad?

when it was suppose to be fill with love

we filled it with blood

stains

and tears.

why can't we just make the reality

a good thing?

why must we say that reality is hard?

when what happens in reality

is all depends on how we act???

please,

make me believe

that living in this reality is not that bad

if not,

please let me stay in my own world again

i feel much more safer that way

much more protected

much more secure.

END

what? me??...LOL

*sigh*...
somehow  i feel like this is the only best place where i can really actually express my feelings..

my anger
my disappointment
my sadness
my happiness
my hobby
what i likes
and what i dont likes...

because no one actually reads it anyway~ 


= w =''

LOL.. hhahahaha

well you see.. i dont really know how to express myself in front of others...
its just that i feel that people are easy to misunderstand me when the're with me..

okay.. it is undoubtedly that i am a very straight forward person..
well, i speaks my mind... but its just me...

to tell the truth, after i said anything, i never actually remember what i said...
you know.. like when i accidently  said things that make people hate me...
i dont remember them.. every day is a new day you see... hehehe

or maybe when i accidently raise my loud voice...
to tell the truth... about raising the voice..
every time i raise my voice, i feel like i want people to here me... bcoz, i was raise in an empty house when i was little... i was alone... my dad passed away when i was 7.. and since then, my mum was always busy with her work... it was lonely... so every time im in a crowd, i feel like if i raise my voice, people will notice me...
SO PLEASE DONT HATE ME BECAUSE MY VOICE IS LOUD...

i know that im hard headed, hot- blooded, short tempered, careless in every way and very clumsy too..
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all negative things :'(


but im not really a hateful person right??? or i am one??? OMG!!!
i'll just stop here.. k bye..