Wednesday, November 30, 2011

afraid

afraid.
somehow these feeling always chasing me lately.
i dont know why but i really do feel that i've been living in my fear lately..

the first reason why i feel this way is because i feel that if i just act like my usual talkative self,
i might hurt someone feeling...
my tone when i talk to people is always wrong..
and this always makes people misunderstand me
and i dont want to repeat the same mistake twice!

besides, my selfishness is also the reason why i act like this...
all i wish is that no one will be hurt because of me...
especially in this club.. i really love this club..
if its not because of this club, i would never be able to be who i used to be now..
i dont want the member of this club to hate me more...
coz i really2 want to stay in this club..

that is the reason why i choose to isolate myself for the best...
if i did that, i could never hurt anyone's feeling..
i think..
i hope that i'm right..

I HOPE YOU GUYS UNDERSTAND...

i really really love you guys...  :'(

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

heyyyy... don't isolate yourself and don't look down on yourself... change slowly... you'll make it... start from the basics ie your tone maybe... before you want to say something, pause a bit and play what you want to say in your mind first... yeah, this might look a long process, but, you'll get over it in no time ok?

izzahime68 said...

hey anonymous, thanks for your advice.. maybe your right.. i'll try my best from now on.. thanks~ <3