provoke

why is it when i try to prevent myself from hurting someone else's feeling,
they provoke me to do so??? why?

what would u think about this dialog in facebook:-

me: nasib tidak menyebelahi kami... mungkin ini bukan masanya lagi untuk kami... UiTM Shah Alam B telah memenangi perdebatan ini dengan margin 1, usul diterima 3 per 2 dewan.. pendebat terbaik ialah abang Mohd Afiem Yahya. Tahniah buat UiTM Melaka.. walaupun x dapat mara sehingga final, namun semua orang yang terlibat telah bersama-sama berusaha untuk mencapai pencapaian sejauh ni... Tahniah sekali lagi buat UiTM Melaka.

him:  ‎Nurul Izzah, kelas ayat kau yg ni..." nasib tidak menyebelahi kami"....owh lupeeerrrr.... kau kan pendebat mega....ahakz! kerja kau, tido komik cheezy wedges 2 siap extra cheese 2...terosss pendebat mega uolsss...meks x mampu...

i seriously don't know how to reply to that so i just keep quiet...

afraid

afraid.
somehow these feeling always chasing me lately.
i dont know why but i really do feel that i've been living in my fear lately..

the first reason why i feel this way is because i feel that if i just act like my usual talkative self,
i might hurt someone feeling...
my tone when i talk to people is always wrong..
and this always makes people misunderstand me
and i dont want to repeat the same mistake twice!

besides, my selfishness is also the reason why i act like this...
all i wish is that no one will be hurt because of me...
especially in this club.. i really love this club..
if its not because of this club, i would never be able to be who i used to be now..
i dont want the member of this club to hate me more...
coz i really2 want to stay in this club..

that is the reason why i choose to isolate myself for the best...
if i did that, i could never hurt anyone's feeling..
i think..
i hope that i'm right..

I HOPE YOU GUYS UNDERSTAND...

i really really love you guys...  :'(